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It’s Just So Much

I needed time to process everything. In a way, I was forced to as Jesse required my iPad for his schoolwork. It was really the best thing for me.

An unimaginably awful amount of happenings came about within two months. My family is hurting. We will hurt for a long time.

Cathy died on January 26. She was an amazing and beautiful person. I have known her for more than half of my life.

She read books faster than most people eat dinner. She created the most magical things out of yarn. That is a witchery beyond me. Cathy was not afraid to try new crafts. She was inspiring.

Her catch phrase was “oh, well shit.” It’s classier than my “fuck, or fuckity fuck.” Not that I will stop.

Cathy & Gary

I hurt for myself. I hurt more for Gary, her sister, children, grands, the people that will always be part of our family. So many people loved her.

This is where I am indebted to the school board for depriving me of technology.

I am thankful.

With the crap that happened in December, I am still here. I was told I would need to contact palliative care. I did not need them nor did I go to hospice.

My father-in-law, John, and I were hospitalized with Covid-19. We are still recovering. We are getting better. Recovering from something like this is hard. Our lungs and muscles are still weak. The fatigue is pretty awful. We are slowly overcoming the bastard.

I will always be thankful to have a mother-in-law like Cathy. I truly have the best in-laws. All four of them.

I am grateful for my mom. She has been helping with my boys when I can not do the laundry or wash the dishes. Covid zaps the energy out of you.

(L to R) Papa John, Nana Bobi, Nana Jan, Me, Dad, Grandpa Gary, Grandma Cathy
Boys: (L to R) Jes, Sam, Max, Sol

My heart will continue to mourn.

I will continue to savor the small things and celebrate the big things.

I love all of you.

My 9/11 Post

Everyone else is doing one. So here is mine. This is also the last time I am logging on today.

There are a few things in everyone’s life that they will always remember with a clarity that almost seems supernatural. Our brains are not meant to remember things that clearly. At least that is what I believe. Yet, every generation has its moment of “I remember exactly what I was doing when ‘this’ or ‘that’ happened.”

9/11 and the Challenger are mine. I know the Columbia explosion should be in there, but that disaster is really a blur in my mind. I won’t forget it, but I do not remember it as clearly as the Challenger. The Challenger was the first time I recall feeling a shock so big I couldn’t express it. I was in 4th grade. We heard about it as we were walking from gym class to the cafeteria. One of the twins told me (don’t remember his name) and I told him he was sick for making such a terrible joke.
I had just seen the Challenger on her launch pad about a month before from a distance. My family had traveled to FL from MN for a winter vacation. The shuttle was supposed to have gone up while we were there, but they kept delaying due to frost and bad weather.

On September 11, 2001… I walk into work and someone tells me to look at the tv. I walk into the customer lounge in time to see the 2nd plane hit. It took me a few minutes to understand what had happened. I called my apartment to tell my husband to wake up and watch the tv. There had been a terrorist attack in New York.
We were due to go on vacation that day. To Olympia. A lot of our friends and coworkers advised us not to go as that was Washington’s capitol city. What if there were more attacks planned? We went anyway. I am glad we did. We spent that time with our friends in Olympia. It wasn’t exactly a great vacation, but it was a better way for us to spend that tragic time than sitting on our own in our apartment would have been.

It is now the 10th anniversary of that awful event. I find that I still have the same grief now as I had at that time. I do not need reminders. My tv is off and my computer will be off. I don’t need the constant reminding. I remember well enough.

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